Thanks @Gagingi. Donor's state all sorts of lovely reasons for donating but they also get compensated $600-$700 which may not sound like much to us for putting yourself through an IVF cycle but does go some way towards South African uni/college fees, which for SA students, are quite expensive.
Thanks for your kind wishes @winsor. The next cycle feels like a long way off and of course will be stopped in it's tracks if my ex doesn't release any moula. Plus there's all the pre-testing the ED has to go through. But at least I know in my heart that I'm not finished. I thought I may have been.
Yeah @BlondeinBrisvegas that playsuit was a definite stop me in my tracks/sign from the universe. I think I'd lost sight of the possibility of a 'real' baby. I stood there completely determined that I wanted 18 y/o eggs which is a complete turn around from what I emailed all the ED clinics a few days prior. I'd said I absolutely wanted a donor who had created at least 6 blasts in her last cycle & have a pregnancy/live baby in her recipients history. @infinity888 I like the idea of a party in a petrie dish!!