First of all hon, WELCOME BACK We have so missed seeing you here
I did suspect that things might have come to a head with your ex regarding the settlement. I think it really sucks that you have to beg and grovel to him in order to try and do something so very personal, and I've really felt for you having to try and negotiate your way through that whilst also trying to keep things civil for your DS's sake. It is a tough road for sure and I think you deserve a bl00dy medal
I really do hope things get sorted well before your 6 month prediction. I know when my DH and his ex split is was very messy and even though he basically handed everything to her on a platter she still didn't want to agree to anything purely out of spite! I am hoping things will be a bit more co-operative for you and your ex and that your financial matters are not so complex that the judge can sort it out for you quickly.
Even if it does take six months - heck, even if it takes a year, it still doesn't rule out another shot for you once things are finalised money-wise. There is still hope hon! And just think how nice it would be to do the whole thing under your own terms. Yes, I am still very confident for you. It's NOT over yet hon.
I am really sorry that you're having a bit of a sad time at the moment though. We are all here to support you. You have certainly given this IVF caper a red-hot go and it's really unfair that it hasn't worked for you so far. However I truly feel in my heart that there is hope. I wonder if you were a bit of a victim of poor circumstance and that those dear little embies were perhaps not meant to stay no matter where they were transferred. It is very sad but I am crossing everything for you and I am pretty confident that a brand new donor will give you your much longed for baby, and it will happen when the time is right.
You have been through so much and I think it is important to allow yourself to feel that. It is ok to grieve and to fall in a heap sometimes. Just know that we are here to carry you when you cannot walk yourself.
Big hugs for you hon.