Sorry I haven't been posting much, I've been overwhelmingly busy and just in my own little world trying to sort out what is next in my own journey...
@winsor I just wanted to say how beautifully you wrote about the passing of little Gracie and that I truly do think we sense when they leave us. I have felt that happy feeling leave too and have known in that instant that my bubba has passed. I'm so sorry for what you are going through and love some of the ideas that have been shared here about how to commemorate her. I do hope this isn't the end of the road for you and that DE does become an option for you to both more forward.
@Tahli I just have no words hon. This must be beyond devastating for you and with no reasons found, it just defies logic and doesn't make any sense. You did everything possible to get those little embies over the line, so don't blame yourself at all for not having that procedure - you don't know that it would have made any difference at all to the final outcome. Take some time to grieve, see what the doctors have to say, and take your time working out what the next step might be. I wish I was there to give you the biggest hugs and eat chocolate and cry with you today. It is heart-breaking.
@Bongley I'm thinking of you at the funeral on the other side of the world and I'm so glad you were able to make it there and be there for your family at such a difficult time. Suicide is just horrific. A friend of mine took her life eighteen months ago and she had a little two year old boy and it was beyond horrific for her husband and family. The husband has really struggled to cope and is still trying to deal with it. I hope your brother and niece have a lot of love and support around them to help them through.
@Blossom74 I'm thinking of you too and even though I know you are busy planning the next stage and moving towards DE I know that your heart will still be heavy and in mourning for what might have been. Hope you are taking good care of yourself and DH is looking after you.
@midnite01 that's very exciting about the house! Congratulations on getting it and I'm sure you will make it beautiful.
@Gagingi so happy that Day 6 came through for you and I look forward to hearing the next stage!
Lots of love to @faithandhopellove and @JulieMalooley
@Charlie74 I know you wrote a beautiful big post about where you are at and I didn't get the chance to reply to that, but just want you to know that we all totally understand your thoughts and feelings and you are definitely not alone.
@BlondeinBrisvegas and we will organise that catch up soon!
to everyone else that I haven't mentioned personally, I am following along and cheering or commiserating from the sidelines.