@faithandhopellove Oh Luv....
I can't imagine how emotionally torturous this must be for you Of course you want your other bubba back Luv!!! So bloody unfair!!!
I'm glad your OB is doing weekly scans now and I can definitely see why you're feeling anxious and scared for your other bub. How many more weeks have you got to go?? You had the NIPT testing done didn't you???
Am thinking of you and sending you much strength and love as I think these remaining weeks will require you to dig deep and find a level of strength and courage to help you to get through until both bubs are delivered (I'm assuming you will be having a C-section??).
No doubt there will be times where you think you can't do it, but you can and you will!!! Please reach out to organisations like SANDS or a Psychologist who deals in grief counselling etc if you need some more support to help you through ok?? Don't try to do it all by yourself and like @Blossom74 said, we are all here for you tooxoxoox