@Gagingi - thanks for your supportive words. I guess I am in a state of hopelessness and do wonder if my FS I just written me off as I've had three dud cycles. I can afford more cycles but don't want to just throw money down the drain. I know my FS will not do a fifth cycle with me as he said I was twisting his arm on number four . I can see his rationale - I have had over 50 eggs collected and yet can't even get one normal to transfer. I do think about going on Charlottes waiting list ( I'd be 44 by the time I saw Wazza) but I just don't know as the whole thing is just shrouded in pessimism. I have to draw a line and so far I've drawn it at 43 - no more stim cycles after 43 ( means I've only got til June) otherwise i could just keep going trying to get that one normal egg to transfer, spend thousands and never get it.
Anyway, pity party over. You no doubt are cautiously excited. I would be. You have a really good chance for success thanks to Wazza ( and deserve it after such an arduous path so far).