I LOVE my job. I've worked my way to where I currently am fairly quickly, and my boss loves me. If I fall pregnant though, I KNOW it's going to stress everyone out as tbh, while I'm replaceable like everyone else, it's going to be hard to find someone to replace me and that will stress us both out because we care so much about the business.
The thing is, I'm also 30 now and my daughter is 11 this year... and right now I'm a step down from where I want to be career-wise.
I figure now is the best time for me to fall pregnant PROFESSIONALLY as I will be much more easily replaced NOW rather than when I'm basically the highest I can be in the department I'm in... and I want to do it now for PERSONAL reasons too, in terms of me knowing that the longer I wait the harder it may become to conceive naturally, the fact I've been with my partner 8 years already, and the fact I've already got a whopping great age-gap between my daughter and whatever sibling we give her.
Still, I am terrified of telling my boss. Like I said, I love her, but I know it'll be scary and uncertain as we look for someone to replace me temporarily while I'm on maternity leave... and I'm even more scared if I fall pregnant immediately and leave around the busiest time of the year (Christmas), because that will actually be the worst thing that could happen for our business. I know that she will try and be happy for me, and she WILL be happy for me, as a friend, but as a boss, she'll be sweating and I will be too, because I know it'll be tough going.
I suppose I could just tell her the above - we're personal enough for me to just lay it out like that I suppose - but I'm still really anxious about how it will go.
Anyone else been in a similar situation and have any advice?