I've wanted a baby for so long and we now have a healthy, happy bub, but for the first couple of weeks I felt extremely anxious and worried so much I made myself feel sick (bubs is only three weeks old now).
I would worry about very specific things and have a highly active imagination so it wasn't a good mix. I was worried I would get PND and have heard horror stories about that from my area of work so got so anxious about it (I do work in a particular area that involves child protection etc).
I'm feeling a tonne better now - I think part of it was my hormones adjusting as I always feel the most anxious just before I get my period. I'm not anxious now and have talked it through with my family and midwife but I'm feeling so guilty for feeling that way when he was born! I love him so much but was a bit shocked by it all. I had a bad birth and lost a lot of blood, code blue was called etc. so that probably didn't help.
Anyone else experience anything like this?
Will get help if I need to, but feel like the fog has lifted and I can manage now. I just have to figure out the feeling guilty for not appreciating him early on part now. Just to be clear, I still looked after him and have a very supportive family so we were good the whole way through, I just felt horrible!