This is more a off load...... Because we have told anyone not even family because of a miscarriage in September.
we made a decision this would be our last pregnancy, we have a high needs special needs child.
i wanted to make sure that with this pregnancy knowing it will be my last that I take the time to enjoy it but I can't.
Started off fine with hcg above average but doctor went on to say prepare for twins and you must get nucal scan because of your first child being asd and you need to consider termination....... So I took my results and ran from him he wasn't a doctor I wanted!
Next doctor pointed out out I was folate and b12 deficient which previous doctor missed! So fixed that with pills, then she decided to test for progesterone levels and Yeap they are low so script for that..... I picked it up today and $177! I actually didn't have the money in my account to pay. I looked at my son and thought of his expenses with therapies and his medicines and I didn't have enough money for drugs to assist my baby to stick!
Im so upset, I'm far from enjoying my pregnancy. I'm scared ****less of miscarriage, I'm broke as all crap and worried about how I can afford these medical bills to have a baby stick and still no guarantee!
I then Had to book in my 12 week scan and everyday that I had hubby home to look after our son they were booked out so now I have to call him in from work and I have to take time off work which means no pay for me and further complications with hubby getting the time off work.
We we just can't say to work or friends we need a carer and time off work were pregnant and need scans done cause we don't want to tell anyone and then we don't have family in town they are 12 hours away!
both our work places are not very understanding it's all about them and the inconvenience you cause.
im so overwhelmed and emotional I just want to be pregnant and enjoy it!
Im considering telling my doctor no more drugs and let's see what happens.
And nd believe it or not 12month of healthy living to,get ready for this. First pregnancy I was at my worst health and I had a healthy asd child. I just don't understand!
I just want want something easy and enjoyable in life - we are forever fighting and trying to get somewhere.
And nd no nothing on private health we miss out everything else is but what I'm getting isn't listed as covered wahhhhhhh