@Billie2 happy birthday lovely The bubbly sounded nice and I hope you are feeling a little better today. I just looked up Primary IVF and saw that its a low cost clinic, just an idea, but you could potentially book an appointment in at RPA Fertility clinic (there will be a wait for an appointment which might be good anyway) and have it there as a backup plan for if you decide to do any more cycles. They are really good and its Genea Dr's and science so you're getting top quality for low cost. They would be horrified to hear your story and to not have gotten any kind of answer as to why it happened. If you decide you are finished then you can just cancel, but it might be worthwhile having it there in the background as once things calm down and you are feeling better, you might feel differently. I know for me Ive somewhat given up in my head in the past and then 2 months later I'd wished I had made an appointment anyway. So Im just thinking ahead for you. Once you are in the system you can cycle when you're ready but its the getting the clinic appointments to see a Dr that takes the time.
Anyway its just an idea, you do what you need to do. Look after yourself and I hope you have some more birthday loveliness