As a child and teen too actually I was constantly made fun of for something...my appearance...my weight....so much. I got bullied at primary school and high school a lot. I never said anything and just dealt with it. In year 12 it got better but there was always something. As a result and i developed extreme social anxiety, lack of self esteem and cofidence and a lot of self loathing and even thoughts of suicide and self harm. Till this day i find it hard to answer a phone call at times unless it's from my mum.
My son started prep this year. After school like any kid he likes to play on the equipment for a bit. I sit on the seats in front to watch him. Same kids walk past leaving class. For a few days now I have noticed that some kids are actually laughing at me..saying something to their friend and laughing...i brushed it off once cause i thought it might be due to the way i was sitting...being overweight i tend to sit with my legs open without realising....but i was wearing a long dress so nothing inappropriate showing. Same thing has happened 2 days in a row...and this time it seems to be happening by the siblings too. The brother stuck his tongue out at me and blew a raspberry...one yesterday kept looking back at me as i looked at her and waved from afar...basically being a smarty pants. One kid walks past me today...different one and says something to his sister, laughs and waves too.
This stuff is not them saying something to their friends and then they just happen to catch my gaze...this is them intentionally doing this. They might be in grade 2+.
And I am aware these are kids and I'm 37 years old but it seriously giving me hightened anxiety that i don't want to do drop off and pick up again. The scars of my childhood have never left. I can't forget.
I am thinking to speak to the parents next time I see them...but I don't want to be laughed at because I'm an adult and they are children.
Should I say something ? I hate that this is affecting me this way still.