I'm feeling incredibly alone & vulnerable here & need some perspective or something, I'm really not sure what I want or need.
Long story short, history of severe mental illness over past 8 years, treated be CAT team & mental health service for 6/8 of those years with several inpatient stays & stays as PARC centres (short term residential treatment centres).
Past few months, things have deteriorated to the point where one of my support workers again contacted CAT team at start of Jan. Things have continued to escalate to a point where I'm not functioning in any sense of the word - not showering, eating, drinking, dressing, escalating self harm & suicidal ideation with intent & have today had medications removed from the home etc so have been told that either I agree to planned psych ward admission (possibly tomorrow) but early next week at latest.
I am a single mum to a 12 yo, with no family or friends to help. Because of my complete lack of functioning I have forced the CAT team's hand in making report to DHS. They are coming tomorrow to help work out what with happen to my child while in hospital but my house is the shambles, there is no food in the house & it is very obvious I cannot adequately care for my son right now. So to add to everything, the suicidal ideation is partly caused by not being able to care for him, but I'm terrified now that he will be removed from my care & I will have to fight for him to come home once discharged & I'm not up for that fight.
I'm lost & scared for him