Yeah it's such a hard hard road that nobody would ever understand unless they have travelled it. it impacts a person on so many levels and I know it's changed me in so many ways I would never have imagined. I've had years of wanting to run away from everyone and everything so that no one would know, as I've always hated that feeling of pity that I feel people feel towards me. It's why i don't see a bunch of my oldest friends because it's always the elephant in the room. I hate that and I hate that we all have been through so much grief and pain and still do not have that elusive baby. It's so not hard to see why you've hit rock bottom Tahli.
big hugs to everyone, none of us deserve any of this