yes, I hope you're ok too Tahli. hugs
afm, start the BTs on monday for FET. have my prescription for progesterone support to get filled and forms to sign. sadly I think I've put on the weight I lost last year over the xmas break - too much food whilst away & I was drinking coke again (naughty). back on the lite'n'easy's now though. just handed in another uni assignment this afternoon. 5 weeks and 1 more assignment left for this subject. it's making time go quickly
Summer I think you might be a special story, I hope so anyway.. xx
I want to cheer you girls on but my head isn't in the right place, sorry. The tone of my response probably sums up where I'm at.
I've come to the realisation that I'm not going to have a second baby.
I'm not interested one iota in having the hysteroscopy next Friday. I'm not interested in Dr M's results. I'm not overly interested in carrying some-one else's baby (donor embryo). And I'm not sure I want to be $6k oop to get 1 x day 3 OE embryo to transfer, if I'm lucky, with such a minuscule chance of it implanting, let along the pregnancy progressing.
I received a phone call from my gp's receptionist lastnight to say she had a message from my gp about two of my blood test results. My gp must have been CCed into both LB and Dr M's blood tests from the last couple of weeks. My cholesterol is a little higher than she'd like, nothing to worry about but just watch what I eat and exercise more. Thanks Pred. And my liver function is not as it was a year ago and to discuss it with my FS as it's probably linked to my IVF meds. This is only the start of the test results trickling in.
I'm not prepared to f~~k up major organs in the pursuit of a baby. You read about and get told the side effects but still I keep shuvving this cr~p into my body, blindsided by my unwavering desire for a baby. My body was screaming at me to stop and it took for me to break out in seriously painful hives for me to listen.
There has to be a point where you draw the line.
@Tahli I get it. I think I'm somewhat with you on most of that, it gets too hard and yes I've landed in hospital very very sick and only then did I start to look at all this and say wow what am I doing. I just want to give you a big hug. We all have our limits
yes, it's completely understandable Tahli. I don't think you should risk your health either. I hope you feel better soon
@Tahli, everyone has a breaking point hon. And God knows you've thrown everything you could have at this. For me I know the end of my journey will come down to money, but there are many other reasons for stepping back that are just as valid, if not more.
You are Momma to a lovely little boy and as much as I know you long for a second child, I also understand that being there, and being healthy enough, to care for him must be your number one priority. Maybe putting your health first, and taking a step back to evaluate would do you the world of good.
You may choose to continue on with IVF in the future. You may choose not to. Either way, I am in awe of everything you have been through so far on this journey, and we support your decision no matter how you decide to move forward from here.
And chick, whatever happens from here on in - please keep popping back in so we know you're ok. You're just freakin' awesome and the place just wouldn't be the same without you
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