Oh Luv!! You're only human FFS's!!! Of course you can't help but have that tiny ray of hope particularly because you know you can and have conceived naturally before!! Who wouldn't get their hopes up in that situation??
I think it's time to get off to your GP's asap for some tests to see what those hormones of yours are doing. Maybe your recent illness has thrown things out of whack?? Have you started taking any new meds/supplements that could've done the same??
In the meantime, please be kind to yourself ok Luv?? Don't be angry or berate yourself either for you've done nothing wrong. I'm sure I can speak for the other Lovelies when I say each of us would've thought/hoped for the same if we were in your shoes
It's Sunday, so pop open a nice bottle wine and eat some cheese/crackers and grapes or something with that DH of yours ok??? Hope you enjoyed your mini break away together