I often wonder that when I see other mums...tidy homes, well organized and managing kids well. Im generally an organized person myself but 18 months after having my second I still feel I'm just keeping my head above water some days. I feel like all I am is a sahm and that I've completely lost my own identity.
I get very overwhelmed with the never ending housework and I find two kids so demanding some days ( they are 19 months and 5) I love my girls like crazy but a lot of the time I don't love being a mum iykwim. I don't feel like I am giving them the best of me. I feel even playing with them sometimes is something I just can't be bothered with.
I've tried simplifying things as much as possible, I'm on a bit of a minimalist obsession atm and have got rid of a lot of clutter. I feel like my dh could do more but he is so exhausted from work all the time.....
Is it normal to feel like this? Do we only see the best of other mums and the worst is hidden? Just the day to day stuff is full on that even the thought of having friends over overwhelms me and I just find it stressful... Maybe its just the heat lol.