I'm not sure this is the best place for this thread as I don't feel depressed - not unhappy but not happy.. There are just so many things I want to change about myself I'm wondering if there are underlying issues that need attention because I just can't seem to take the steps necessary.
I have very low self esteem despite having a partner who worships the ground I walk on, who has made sure I never need to work & im so grateful for that, but I feel very unworthy of his love. I feel like I have a bit of a defeatist attitude & I feel negative a lot of the time, despite having no reason to? I feel jealous of other people a lot, I feel like I 'should have' done more with my life & would like to study but don't feel like I could do it so I put it off (and have done so for years). I spend too much time on my phone, literally all day, and want to stop but it feels too hard. I have a shocking diet but again find it too hard to change it. I just have very low motivation with a lot of things and I'm wondering if it comes back to self esteem/lack of confidence in my ability to do things.
My DF is the type of person that if he wants to change something he does, and I admire that but I just can't seem to apply to necessary principles to myself.
Not even sure any of this makes sense but I'm just not sure where to go from here as I feel increasingly anxious about changing these bad habits, but somehow I just can't do it..