This is a "I've got to get this out of my system before i explode" post.
I love my new baby, i really do, but my gosh he's really annoying me. It's been 11 weeks of hell.
He's very unsettled alot of the day, only happy when he's being held/ walked around. Right now I'm letting him cry because i need a break and a rant. I feel like such a failure.
I thought we were getting somewhere over the weekend, he did so well but yesterday and today he's turned back into demon baby. He doesn't nap well which makes me think he's overtired all the time.
To be fair he's sleeping really well at night. We do have some nights where it's a struggle to actually get him to sleep, but once he's down he'll generally sleep til 5am. Lastnight it took 2 hours to get him to sleep.
We first thought he had reflux but the dr said no, and since we put him on aptamil gold+1 at her suggestion he's been doing better. It can be a struggle to get him to take the bottle in the afternoons but once he's drinking he'll drink it all. He likes to be walked around while feeding, it's killing my back! He's getting his wind up heaps better too this past week.
I just don't understand why all the constant crying. He's fine when I'm holding him as long as we're moving around. The other thing is he won't settle for dh anymore which puts even more demand on me as i have to take him all the time while also fitting in time with ds1, and taking care of the the house, cooking etc.
I'm at the point where i can't wait to get back to work in feb. I hardly enjoy him at all and i feel so damn guilty. He's a completely different baby to what ds1 was. At this age ds1 was sleeping well during the day, very happy and chatty. Ds2 has smiley chatty moments but nowhere near as much.
We've had alot of difficulties with finding the right formula. I'm sticking with the aptamil though. it's been a week and a half now so i guess he's still adjusting.
Colic has been mentioned by the dr, as has his gut still adjusting and maturing. Give it time she says. I'm so frustrated and depressed that he seems so unhappy.