Hi Gals, here's my 19 week morphology scan. It's feeling more real every day.
Saw FS today about number 2. We will be starting again in June....
@Molros we named him Roman dp has wanted that name for years if we had a boy and I didn't like it at all but it grew on me lol dp was amazing through the whole thing he was thrown into the deep end and looked after baby when he could while I wasn't in maternity ward they kept my room in the maternity ward so dp could take baby from special care nursery and sit with him and bring him down to me my mum slept in my room and brought him down throughout the night for feeds, everyone was amazing dp had a cry at one stage because he was so upset that I wasn't getting to experience it he kept saying this isn't right this should be you it broke my heart. I'm still struggling with what happened it just scares me that things could have gone very very badly and I wouldn't be here for my little boy but I'm working through it.
Love being a mum but the lack of sleep is exhausting (who would have thought) @Rarah11 everyone keeps saying once you get to three months things get better sounds like you agree so glad you and Bubs are doing so well, how is the sleeping at night going? Do you know when they drop a night feed? I'm already looking forward to one less midnight snack @Bongley look at that little hand!!! Absolutely gorgeous! Can't believe ur 19 weeks already nearly half way, little one will be here before you know it do you still have morning sickness or are you feeling ok?
@Bellydance how exciting!! Can't believe so many girls are already onto number two hoping things are smooth sailing for ur cycle and transfer, do you have an frozen embryos? Or will you need to do collection?
Rarah just the one, just the one! Another boy.
@miissalina oh I'm so sorry you had a traumatic birth on top of everything else that has happened to you. Are you seeing anyone to help you through it? That would be terrifying for anyone to go through on top of all the emotions of having a newborn. My son had the cord wrapped around his neck twice and was born all blue and non responsive. I remember they placed him on my chest and I was like "Bugger skin to skin, take him away and fix him!!" The emergency team were called briefly but he recovered before they got there. I was pretty whacked out on the drugs at the time but it freaked me out for a good while afterwards. Whenever he would fall asleep (and go floppy) I was worried that he wasn't breathing.
That's a beautiful name, I love it! We are tossing up between three names. My son is Cormac (Mac) so I'd like another unusual name but it's so hard to find one so I think the next will be a little more common (I think one of the ladies on this list has a Cormac too funnily enough). Maybe I'll steal yours
@Bongley more than happy for you steal his name lol just won't tell dp he thinks it's the most amazing name and I spent years turning my nose up at it lol
I'm abit peeved off with the universe actually, thinking wtf did that gave to happen after everything I've been through you throw another curve ball at me like are you trying to get me to break! So the thought of dying plays in my head every day and then I think do I risk my life in the future to have another child, it's frustrating but I guess I'll deal with it when it comes time, I've made appnts with specialists to discuss these concerns hoping it'll help me mentally and then I'll have some reality to the future and future pregnancies, would just be nice to not have to deal with it and just enjoy being a mum
Dp said when Roman was born he wasn't breathing but was because of the general anaesthetic when they put me to sleep, he took about a min to start breathing properly. All these decisions were made in a few seconds so maybe if I was aware of risks to baby and had time to make choices I wouldn't have agreed to general, also would have asked dp no visitors until I see baby. I'm still really hurt that everyone got to meet him and cuddle him and o wasn't there to experience any of it, just a ****ty situation really, also don't remember much of the first three days definatly not how I thought his birth would go but at least he is happy healthy and safe
I'm seeing a psychologist, the same one I seen before my transfer with him she's amazing and knows my history so figured I'd stick with her, just helps being able to talk about it and express how I'm feeling to someone outside the family
miissalina I wondered if the morphine I'd had contributed to my son being non responsive so I'm going to skip that next time, didn't help me at all anyway. So straight to the epidural for me. That's the plan anyway.
I remember thinking a lot about death in those early weeks too, I think for me it was the shock of looking after this little life and how precious and SO fragile he was and what would happen if he died or I died or my partner died. It's all such an emotional time.
You poor thing everyone seeing your son before you!! I'm going to ban everyone for at least the first week (or two) really don't need the extra stress at that point.
I do remember going to the NICU the first time (he was just under observation because of a heart issue in the womb) and being embarrassed that I wouldn't recognise my own son. All the nurses knew how to settle him and change his nappy before me. Ah well, at least I got a lot of sleep those first few days until he was put in our room.
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