I'm having a really bad day. My ds2 is 10 weeks tomorrow and I'm ashamed to say i haven't really enjoyed him much at all. It was a stressful pregnancy, traumatic birth and so far he's been a difficult baby. We just can't seem to get things right. It's been a battle finding a formula that fits him. The dr has put him on aptimal gold +. We are 4 days in and sometimes he's ok, others he screams and refuses the bottle. He's been like this on every formula. It's usually from lunchtime to midnight that he's unsettled. Lately it's just the whole day but he's sleeping well at night. Generally asleep by 8 (which is also a battle), sleeps til 2am, has a bottle and goes back to sleep, starts fussing from 5am. Sometimes he has his morning bottle fine, others he tries but then cries. Today it's been a battle getting bottles into him. It's so hot i don't understand why he's not drinking. And of course I'm worried about dehydration etc. He has no fever or anything.
He's always had wind issues, but I've tried the infants friend and infacol.
The dr says it's normal. How is this normal. Because he takes the bottle no problems at times, he's regular and putting on weight she sees no problem, just some babies are difficult. Sometimes it's impossible to settle him, he just cries and cries and screams. Dh says we need to let him cry sometimes. But it distresses ds1 so i try to soothe him. I feel like a failure when i can't settle him. Earlier he got himself so worked up he started coughing and choking. I was freaking out i was going to lose him.
Dh was at golf this morning, and it's just been the worse day ever. Not sure if getting my period today for the first time since before i was pregnant is magnifying the feeings. Pesky hormones.
Ds1 has been playing up. Ds2 has been extremely unsettled.
I just had a massive breakdown. Ds2 would not settle. Dh is home now. I gave the crying baby to him, walked outside and had a huge cry. I feel like leaving. I see no light at the end of the tunnel. I am half way through maternity leave, i go back to work in about 10 weeks time. I remember with ds1 dreading it. This time i can't wait. And then come the guilty feelings again.
So when does it get better? When do i get the smiling happy baby my ds1 was, that all my friends have? What am i doing wrong? Is there something wrong with my baby? Has anyone else been through this and when did things improve?