Thanks ladies.. I may have come across a bit wrong I think. I am not in a heap on the floor. Its my first experience in IVF, and I was being vocal in how I felt, which right now is stupid for being naive. I take my hat off to the ladies in their fight through multiple cycles. You are bloody tough. Being an ex cop, Ive seen a very dark side of life, so I am a bit hardened I guess and was just being open. Im not sure why there was reference to my son when I was mentioning my failed IVF, but yes, I was blessed to have my son falling pregnant in my late 20's naturally. We started ttc #2 when he was 18mths old, he is 8 now. I had two mc's each side of our sons birth. I had a secondary infertility blog, been active on these type of sites before, so Im not new to these feelings. I respect each individual 'journey' (I hate that phrase), and wish everyone success, irrelevant of primary or secondary infertility.
@LegallyBrown I get it. In your shoes, Id feel exactly how you expressed yourself. Just wanted to add that in. Id be a raging monster if we were still ttc #1 after starting ttc in 2006. Id be riding a broomstick to work!