I'm fairly certain I started a similar thread this time last year when we were getting ready to take DS overseas for the first time and here I am again...
DS (21months) and myself are flying to the States Thursday for Thanksgiving and because my parents now haven't seen him for a year (because god forbid they visit us). Anyways...I'm genuinely panicking. I feel absolutely sick to my stomach that something is going to happen to the plane and that I'm making a decision that is going to end my precious baby boy's life. I keep getting really awful imagines in my head of the flight and I'm genuinely so scared, I desperately want to cancel the trip.
I don't really know what I'm looking for, just need to get it out as I keep getting this sick feeling in my stomach. I never used to be like this, afraid to fly, it's only since having DS. I've always had a standard nervousness that I think most probably have but it was easy enough to just push aside and be more excited about my journey rather than nervous, whereas this is just eating at me. It's not necessarily that I'm scared of dying, it's that I'm scared of DS dying, of making a choice (like taking him on a plane) that costs him his life.
I don't really know what I'm looking for, just needed to type it out.