@Augustine I'm so sorry to see you here, it's such a rough thing to go through all the cycles and get some good news for it to fall away again... I know that feeling well... Just be kind to yourself and hug those babies xxHi Ladies, I've not written on here for a while. Have been seeing Lynn for a number of years and was spoilt to have 2 DS (one natural, one assisted and 2 losses in between).
So after 5 rounds of clomid, 7 months of progesterone, a tubal flush and lots of hoping.... I was delighted to learn I was expecting. Had early scan at 7 1/2 weeks and discovered two eggs, one without a yolk and the other one with a fetus and nice strong heartbeat measuring 6 weeks. Sonograhper says that it's quite unlikely that the egg with no yolk will develop but that the other one is nice and healthy - so a great result.
Went in for harmony blood test at 10 1/2 weeks and they offered a free scan so I thought why not - put my mind at ease. Sonographer starts the scan and immediately goes quiet. I can see a baby but it is small and lifeless. She shows me where the heartbeat should be and there is nothing. I'm just thinking - how can this be happening. Again!? My previous MC were also like this - missed miscarriages where I have no symptoms, no bleeding, just loss of heartbeat.
I was only 10 days away from 12 weeks. 10 days away from getting ready to share my news. I'm so shattered and can't even fathom picking myself up to go through the rollercoaster journey of conceiving again. I'm so terribly lucky to have my two boys and I'm unbelievably grateful for that but still feel such a heavy heart for the baby that I had got excited about, planned and hoped for... and then had taken away.
Had my D&C Friday with Lynn - she was wonderful. She said she thinks that one of the twins had a chromosome abnormality and this perhaps impacted upon the other healthy one. They have sent off for testing given my history with miscarriage so perhaps there will be some answers there.
I will have a follow up appointment with Lynn in the New Year. I'm wondering if what the next step will be from here.... if it's back on the same regime of fertility induction drugs (my issue is poor ovarian reserve and anovolution) or if we will have better odds going straight to IVF.
Telling family has been strange. For some reason it seems as though because I've been through this before I should be used to this by now...