midnite01. I really hope they keep rising. Thinking of you and your stress levels tonight. Must be really hard as you have no control you can only just hope and pray. I'll be doing that for you x
@JulieM, I think your employer would have to be pretty hard pressed to let you go. You seem to have such an integral role in the business. Not only that but I suspect you do receive a certain degree of 'protection' if you will, by your pregnancy. Not many employers would be brave enough to make the pregnant lady redundant, for fear of a law suit! Hoping it all works out ok for you love.
@midnite01, I am crossing my fingers that your bubs is just a slow starter, and in the next few days your HCG shoots up quickly.
@Summer, I think @BIB hit the nail on the head. You've had so much on your plate for so long, and you just need to catch a break, and maybe have a talk to someone about it all. One thing I do know is that running away is rarely the answer to anything. Think how devastated your DP would be if you left. No, this is the time when you need to turn towards each other, not away. Hugs for you hon
On a completely different topic, I was talking to my sister today. She was saying how her son (my nephew) has a girlfriend now, they have never even kissed and they are going on their first proper date this Friday night (to the movies, with her Mum!)
Anyway, my sister apparently asked him (he is nearly 12) "What will be different now that she is a girlfriend and not just a friend?" He said "I guess now I have to stand up for her honor."
How sweet is that!
Sorry for having such a downer when there's so many others on here having a hard time - @midnite01 I'm sorry those numbers aren't better and now they've got you worried about an ectopic it rarely seems to go easy does it?
I'm just really at the point of giving up on everything. I've done so much counseling over the years and it has helped at different times, but right now I really don't care enough to bother. I kind of see myself just packing a bag and taking a flight to Bali and starting over. The depression did get really bad earlier this year when I was very invested in the thought that if I don't have children I don't want to live, and it feels like I'm heading back that way. Especially now as I don't have a business, any dollars, my friends are pretty much all gone, and it feels like the end of so many things. Thanks for being there for me - the ladies on this thread are truly amazing.
Good evening ladies. I poas today and another stark white bfn so pretty sure this cycle has failed. I'm not surprised at all now as I would probably have a heart attack if I actually did get a positive. I've gone through all the usual with loads of tears and those feelings of just giving ivf up and a feeling I can't really describe. It's a yucky feeling of disgust for my body I suppose, for doing this to me, and you just wish you could shake it off but it stays. It's like a nasty stain that won't go away. Does anyone else feel that way after a bfn? I will continue to take all my drugs but will stop the acupuncture now and wait to see a new fs Dr NL to see what he says next week. I did consider another fet cycle straight away to get in before the end of the year but the odds of that working are so low I know it would just be my body killing another embryo and me throwing money to the wind again. I will have to cop the fees at the start of the year if I even can afford a mainstream clinic which I will find out from DrNL I guess. I will get Dr Ms paperwork in too and reassess in the new year. Birthday is in two weeks which will not be a celebration as it's just another year of fertility gone and I've cancelled Christmas. I'm sure you get it @Summer. Just want to crawl into a ball now and have this year over with.
It's good there's some happy news still coming through on this thread and hope there's more to come soon. Sorry to be a downer ladies. Will step out the haze soon xx
so cute Blossom (though I'm sure he stands up for her as a friend too)
Charlie, well said.
I know how you feel Caesardust. hugs. try get some rest. it's an awful, hard road this ivf stuff. I hope you feel better soon.
@Summer I don't want to trivialise your feelings by any means but we can probably all understand your feelings to a certain degree as we've all been there at different times. It's very rare that a man falls in love with and chooses his woman because of the children she will bear for him, so I doubt very much that your hubby wants anyone other than you. He chose you. Remember that. Real love is very hard to come by so don't you dare throw it away - it will crush you both and won't achieve anything other than sadness. You will find your happy, it may just take some time and a grand plan... I hope it happens sooner rather than later x
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