Thank you for your enormous emotional support girls. I didn't reply earlier because I was a wreck and just didnt know how to say thank you adequately enough. I still don't.
I just received an email from Cape Town. Low and behold, because my hcg hasn't dropped, my FS is reluctant to advice me to stop the meds and wants me to continue on them and do a repeat blood test on Wednesday. I guess this is the cautious approach rather than the LB approach, who was ready to draw a line under the cycle on Wednesday.
I now have light tummy cramps and backache. It feels like my period is imminent (as it did on my very first pregnancy). I've even been piggy backing my son around this arvo and cracked open the Milo tin!
I started to pack away tonight's meds but didn't know which ones to stop and which ones to continue on...as in would I do a fresh cycle with LB straight away or fly to CT to start working my way through SD2's 5 frozen embryos. I'd even looked at the price of flights to help me decide. My way of coping, plan b and all that.
And now I'm having to turn my mind back to the tiniest miniscule of hope that one embryo may make it. I shall go and do my regular meds.