Bbhope, you poor thing. I know this is not going to help you now, but this will pass. Ask for and accept as much help as you can and get as much sleep as possible. It is important you rest.
I live NOR. I'm happy to help you get your hands on the padbury mixture if you want to give it a go. I could perhaps post it to you as I don't go SOR very often. Please pm me if I can help.