On top of..you've got added stressors with trying to find $ to keep Cycling etc. I'm not surprised you're wound up so tightly!!😦
Your adrenal glands are prob overloaded with cortisol etc from all of this stress/anxiety. I know $ is a problem plus living in a small town most likely limits your choices too from finding ways & means to relax.
Massage, accupuncture, hypnosis, yoga, swimming are things I'd recommend to try if you could. I reckon a Naturopath consult for a supplement concoction to help support your system internally couldn't hurt either.
This all takes $ & I totally understand what it's like to have none!! (((Hugs))). Will have to think of some freebie alternative relaxation activities for youxoxo