I don't know what, I'm not suicidal but I want to die, I have two young children it breaks my heart that I feel this way, knowing it would hurt them so much not having me around.
I'm on medication which works a lot of the time, had been seeing a psychologist and having counseling but stopped because I ended up taking about the same issues everyone but none of her suggestions seemed to help. I have a lot of stress due to my step sons behaviour and the fact he's manipulated both his mum and dad into getting his own way. I feel like I can't talk to anyone and no one cares about me or what I've got to say. I feel completely forgotten about and know no one but my children and husband would care if I wasn't here.
My step dad died last year and because the family and close friends think I'm 'strong' no one has bothered to check in to see if I'm ok (I've expressed to people that I'm struggling but it's been swept under the rug because other people are struggling more than me) which adds to the feeling that no one cares. I lost my nana Mother's Day this year and didn't bother telling anyone because I knew I'd get no support.
I'm not sure why I'm posting this here, I just need to get it off my chest.