I am sitting here in tears. I just totally lost my sh!t at DS. I have never ever raised my voice at him until tonight. He won't stop being defiant and is punching me if I have to pick him up to remove him from whatever he's doing or if he doesn't like me in general.
Sometimes he is just randomly rough because he thinks it's funny or is misguidedly being affectionate so I'm trying to show him how to do it gently or else if he is just being rough I put him on the ground off my lap and move away, usually to a room with a baby gate so we are separate. It feels sadistic to do that but it gives me time to calm myself.
I'm over it and now I feel ****ing guilty too 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
I apologised to him after and explained why I was cross and we had big cuddles but I can't do this as a daily thing. I try to give him space to make choices for himself when it is logical and freedom to do his own thing, but there are times when it's mum's choice and he knows that. He doesn't get to pick bedtime or when we go leave the playground or when he has a bath. It's always been this way.
I've taken his cars away for the night (he normally likes to go to sleep with them) and he understands why.
I try so hard to be consistent and calm but tonight was a big fat fail. Has anyone else's toddler suddenly become violent and what can I do?
Sad and despondent...