@leyshoja As the cliche goes, when it's your own baby it's completely different! I'm not overly interested in other people's kids and I have absolutely no doubt that it stems from the heartache of it taking 10 yrs to have my son. Even before starting ttc no 2 I still struggled around pregnant women which in theory I should have been fine with b/c I had my son. Some scars are pretty deep.
You and I have the same history of loss I think, 2 bubs at the same stage, then a healthy live birth, so I understand where you're coming from. I know I couldn't breath out til I got to wk 11 too. How you feel might start to evolve with the first few scans, and those first kicks and movement around 20 wks. You'll do brilliantly love.