I suck at this parenting stuff. I guess some people just don't have those maternal instincts. I have a 3 year old daughter that was unplanned. I had never intended on having kids, it was never part of my plan. Please don't judge me, I'm honestly not a bad person. I hate being a parent. I hate being a wife, in fact I just hate the way my life is turning out. My daughter is healthy, well fed, bathed and is dressed in clean clothes everyday. She doesn't listen to me and im fed up. Maybe its because she just wants my attention. I don't play with her enough or at all, I just find it frustrating. I know I should be doing more with her and reading her stories but I don't. At bed time tonight it was another tantrum that just went on and on and I cracked. I told her I hate her and I wish I wasn't her mother. I feel terrible now but the words just came out and I couldn't stop them. I'm so miserable and feel trapped in my marriage.