Sorry I'm just getting round to responding now. Thank you for your lovely messages ladies, made me cry when I read them knowing people just get it. And Little Miss, you should win a bubhub award for post of the year!
I'm disappointed for looking things up because I know they just cause me more anxiety, too many opinions and wondering why my baby can't be like that. Especially Gina Ford! According to her my 5 week old should only be waking once right now and if he's waking more it means I'm not breastfeeding properly.... Which then leads me to googling more...
I just want to go with the flow but f it's hard! Last night was 9.45, 1.30, and 4 but then from 4 he wanted to be held so I've pretty much been up since then. He seems to get really congested and snuffly around 4am, breaths fine the whole night until then.
I'm just feeling so anxious and down and finding I'm wishing the days away and not properly enjoying this new little nugget I have. I do know it gets better, how often have I told others my story with DS1 but right now I can't see the wood for the trees. I just want to not feel so tired that my body hurts and feel happy. I lost my shiz at DS1 yesterday and I feel awful about it.