My DP and I were thinking of having a baby however conception happened way sooner than expected, as I thought I had a fertility issue, and I'm now 5 weeks pregnant. This is my second pregnancy, and to a different person than the first. I'm more scared this time. I didn't expect to be feeling this way, last time I was excited and happy. Just the few days I've had snowballing worries. I'm scared I'm going to end up as a single mum again, and people are going to talk about me negatively because I'll have two children to two dads. I'm worried my relationship is going to break down because I feel like I'm being shut off and pushed away. Some days I don't know if I'm actually wanted or needed at all, and that causes me to close off from any feelings and stop caring so that I can't get hurt. I'm worried that I'm not going to have any support from my mum who has blatantly told me she will refuse to be related to the baby, and who is constantly disappointed in me no matter what I do. I'm worried I'm going to have post natal depression again, I already have BPD and anxiety. I've been unemployed for a year after losing a great managerial job, I'm worried I'll never have a job like that again. I'm worried I'll be stuck on Centrelink benefits forever, I'm worried I won't get to finish my studies I'm paying for. I don't know what to do. Worried I won't be able to pay all my bills that have been accumulating. Had a car accident and my car is undriveable (not by me) and I can't afford to fix it or pay the rego on it. I just want to cry but I can't. Everything is so messed up and I don't know what to do.