I already feel guilty writing this as I have been blessed by a beautiful baby girl who truly is an angel from heaven.
I've always wanted a baby since I was a little girl and we struggled with infertility for two years before conceiving with IVF last October when I was 34.
I love my daughter with all my heart but three weeks in and I'm feeling trapped and miss my old life and the freedom I had before.
My road to conception was hard and I recognise how lucky I am. IVF is horrible. I guess the reality has now set in that I have no idea when I'll next get 8 hours sleep or will be able to go out shopping by myself or even eat a meal that isn't rushed or shower without hurrying.
I also was a huge animal person before but am finding my two pets get on my nerves and I'm getting annoyed quickly with them. I never thought that would happen and it makes me sad for them 😞
I'm fortunate to have an amazing DH who does all he can to help. He's already proving to be a great father and support for me. Being the one breastfeeding means it does fall on me during the night and when he goes to work it's just me.
I don't know where exactly I'm going with this. I guess it would be helpful to hear from people who have experienced or are experiencing similar. To want to be a mother but feel it's confining at the same time?
Thank you for reading this far x