The man i love cheated on me. Im 38 weeks pregnant and i feel so dead inside. Today i have had a crazy emotional day between begging him to come home, to sending nasty messages to him and the woman. I just cannot fathom how he can say he doesnt love me and do this to me at this time.
He was away for work for 6 months and they met over there and carried on the relationship once they got home. He came home and treated me like crap. Didnt tell me i looked beautiful, no affection, always on his phone, no interest in the baby. Now he is saying he wants to live under the same roof as his son, but us not be together. I dont know if i can handle that as i do still love him and i am in shock and disbelief. Its still so natural for me to want him.
I have no idea what to do about the birth. I feel like he should be there as it might 'wake him up' but on the other hand why should i let him destroy another happy moment? Why have more memories tarnished by him? I have no idea how i am going to cope on my own with a newborn with no family close by.
I feel like i am stuck in a hole. He doesnt want me back. I am weak and cannot stay away. I feel so pathetic. Im not excited for my son anymore and it kills me that i feel that way. I just am not coping. He disappears and just stops talking to me and doesnt WB to my messages which i will admit are all beating the same drum as he just keeps saying the same thing over and over.
I just dont know what to do. I dont want any of this anymore.