First of all I will share my story... DH and I had been trying for years seeing drs and fs on and off but I was never satisfied with them. DH heard about a naturopath and we went down that path, she suggested I may have endo so after some research I found a fs I was happy with and after performing his own scans had suspicions the cyst he found was endo. He booked me in for a laparoscopy and the cyst he removed was confirmed to be endo, he also found others of it which he removed. 6 months later and still no luck we decided on iui which was a bfn. We decided to try ivf/icsi as the success rates were higher, I responded well and they got 6 eggs, 5 mature and 4 fertilised (we didn't freeze as we are going through a low cost clinic and it's financially better to do another fresh cycle) they transferred but just before I could do a bt I started to bleed and knew it was over round 2 started but my dosage was lower as I had quite bad pain after the last pick up which I thought was normal but they are unsure if I was possibly over stimulated. The last scan before Ec showed only 2 good sized follicles (I was devastated) but DH and the dr were still positive. Ec day and they got one which was mature but didn't fertilise overnight.
Of course we will try again but I sit and wonder sometime if it will happen but I know need to be positive it can be just so hard. Our friends and family are so supportive but they just don't understand how gut wrenching it is. They see us as strong and ask us how we do it and honestly I don't know a lot of the time, it is heart breaking but I have to try and keep positive but sometimes I feel that slowly it's being taken away from me.
Any ideas on how to keep positive would be greatly appreciated