My dh wants to donate sperm. we have two girls ages 10 and 7. he always made out like he was happy with that and always said he was not sure he could handle the different dynamics of bringing up a boy (he was brought up hard by his own father). I took this at face value and these past few months he has been going through the process of going to the clinic to register and have his sperm tested.
I have had to go with him to a counselling session (not sure if she could tell by my face that I was not happy there). By law you have to go to two sessions, the next is in a couple of weeks.
I know it is ridiculous and it is his own body, but I just cannot get on board with this, it is really hurting me. I have just turned 40 and was against having any more (I feel like I did everything myself with our two and couldn't cope with another) but he has said he does not want to raise any more children. I would have had another one a couple of years ago if it would have stopped this. I am feeling like the one person who I love most in the world (apart from my girls) is hurting me. He isn't telling anyone about this and I feel like I have nobody to tell all these feelings too, it's eating me up. Please give me some balanced thoughts and reasoning! Thanks!