Yes mrsmac what you are going through is too awful.
I think Tuxcat's words are sensible. I've done it too, rushed into a cycle to heal the pain of a previous cycle/miscarriage and when that next one fails it compounds the pain rather than healing you. When your body and mind needs a break it just needs a break regardless of the body clock. Please take care. I feel your pain too in regards to a potentially childless future, that's where I am likely heading. We can't kid ourselves and say 'it will happen' because we don't know whether it will. I have cried tears about nobody being at my funeral when I am older. Especially on Saturday night in hospital when the lady in the bed next to me who had the same operation as me had her 4 kids visiting her.
Just a tidbit for you, my FS WILL do pgd on non icsi embryos even though most clinics will not do it. His name is Prof Mar.k Bow.man at Genea Sydney.
Tuxcat thanks for sharing the slacker outfit ideas, love it. Ironically I am a big clothes shopper but right now can't be bothered wearing any of it!! (only trackies or pj's will do with 4 abdominal incision sites!) Lol.