Woohoo @tuxcat - so excited for you that you are out of a place that made you feel so stressed - and the schoolgirl thing is just ridiculous. I've copped some of that backstabbing stuff in my own business (and I'm the owner FFS!) and it drives me crazy. Great that you can focus on you and your health and getting to a really good place. Well done! And LOL at the fact that you're not going in next Tues - brilliant!
Awesome news @Bongley about the house and getting through the counseling stage with your donor - very exciting! Hoping it all goes really smoothly from here.
AFM after yesterdays melt-down I did start the OCP in preparation for the long oestrogen priming cycle. I was so close to not doing it, and I'm still not really invested in it, but I think I have to do it so that I can close the door on this chapter of using medical intervention.
I'm actually really p*ssed off that I could fall pregnant on my own fairly regularly with no intervention whatsoever - but miscarried - and now with all the drugs that are meant to "help" me fall pregnant, I've not fallen again. I've done three rounds of clomid, ovulation induction, low dose FSH, then a full stim cycle and IUI when we only got one egg. So I think I've done what I can, and none of those have produced any better results than going natural - actually it's a lot worse.
I was seriously considering not doing this cycle because I have absolutely no faith in medicine now after this seven months of trying the medical route. My FSH went from a healthy 5 to now being 23 after doing all the drugs and I'm really over it and wish I'd just stayed with my natural medicine routines as at least I was falling pregnant then, and I could have just added in the medications to try to prevent miscarriage when I did.
I think with the drugs sending me hypothyroid, they've just screwed me up rather than being of any benefit at all, so I have decided to do this one last cycle as I think I need to know in my own mind that I did try everything. If we only end up with one egg again then at least I'll know that medication doesn't work for me. I will still keep trying naturally for a little while, but now I'm very upset that I didn't just keep doing what was working, and just add in the stuff to prevent miscarriages. I really thought that if I was falling pregnant naturally, that surely the drugs would make it happen more easily...
Knowing this is the last medicated cycle, I actually contacted an Aussie donor today. From seeing what @Bongley has been through, I thought I might as well get the ball rolling as I do want to be pregnant by the end of the year if at all possible and I'm slowly closing the door on my own eggs. So I'll see if she gets back to me and take it from there.
Love to everyone