@Petal40 sorry to hear about your BFN, life sucks sometimes. I can relate to the pregnant friends making you sad, on FB this morning there was another pregnancy announcement. Its really hard to deal with sometimes and you cant change that, just know you aren't alone and that its totally ok to feel that way, they would be the same if it was the other way around. xx
@Corbes I second what Blonde said, there seem to be a lot of people getting large egg hauls but then only ending up with 1 embryo or 2. I always find that strange, Im a low responder but my ratio from eggs to embryos is actually not that bad so I figure the Dr's know what they are doing. The more FSH they flood you with doesnt equal quality so you just have to hope for a good number of good quality embryos, even if thats only a couple, or 1! I think my E2 levels usually look better than my follicle numbers!! Try not to read too much into it at this stage (says me!!)
@Skyler you sound more upbeat about things which is good. I know what you mean about having thoughts that kids would make life a bit more mundane, I have those more and more actually. DH and I both spend a lot of time doing stuff at home that we love doing and I know that that couldn't happen if we had kids. Nor would I be able to just quit my job and live on a shoestring. Its all part of the grieving process I think, sometimes I think we are past it all, and I wonder like you if I actually would have the energy to go down the donor path. I know we are supposed to be talking about that but I cant be bothered!! Guess I need to get through the next cycle and beyond this year to know whether i want that. Whilst Im not cycling I don't feel so consumed by it all.
Hi to everyone
one more week of work to go