I have remained as detached as I could so far and knew I would not be able to settle until little steps led to a normal amnio. We elected to have the Verifi early Non Invasive test done well...
Aneuploidy Detected T21!!!!!!
I feel just angry really
All research I have done so far does not indicate much hope for false positive of the T21, the other chromosomes yes but not T21. Very few people have good news stories.
We had decided we were not going to do the CVS for a few reasons and go for Amnio but now that I am faced with having to wait another 4 weeks just to be far enough along to do it I can't wait. So CVS it is
I need to wait till Monday to see the doctor at the hospital to get a referral for the CVS...on Tuesday I actually have my Nuchal scan
It is a boy btw not that it matters now..I am shutting down its like some kind of cruel joke
I had been thinking I was prepared for it to be downs syndrome...but I wasn't, I thought I didn't hear the doctor right. To top it off my husband cried too...and he didn't even want to do IVF! I almost made it through the first trimester...well I will...but I wont be celebrating. Today is 11 weeks 3 days and this is my reward for making it the furtherest ever
Bertie I think you asked about the embryo...it was a 2 day embie, 4 cell I think it had the maximum cells they expect at that age...hmm I forget now, I kind of got less hung up on the cell numbers and things as I went along with my cycles as it wasnt the getting pregnant part that mattered but the right place sticking thing...EPU was Monday Transfer was Wednesday ....
these days I dont believe anything makes a difference its just if its a good egg and/or sperm or not, I have had all the blood tests, all normal..I have tried to do everything right and always there is nothing that would make a difference, ectopics, miscarriages, downs syndrome...nothing NO embryo grade, no number of cells, no transfer day, no hot baths, no eating right, taking COQ10, sleep with or without electric blanket, no eating listeria...STAND ON MY HEAD...BMI UNDER 35!! Lets not forget I had to lose 26kgs to even be allowed to start IVF...all that did was increase my age by delaying things by 6 months as far as I can tell...as I never had problems GETTING PREGNANT I have just run out of time
Sorry I am devastated and right now I dont even feel like using my frostie as I am afraid it will be the same...and I just cant do it anymore I dont think and its not even over yet
Oh my god @mrsmac123 I'm so so sorry to read this. I'm devastated for you. It's so frucking unfair. Wish I could give you a huge hug. Thinking of you, take care of yourself through this terrible time.
I hope you fall into the small chance that it's wrong.
Mrsmac I'm so sorry you have to deal with this scenario. Dreadful for you and DH. And it's ok to be angry. We're here for you.
Its so much worse as DH even had his bottom lip quivering this morning and real tears dribbling down his face and I have never seen that before. I feel so useless, I have tried so hard and not even 1 baby in my whole life can I do. He has always made out like kids dont matter to him but now I know the truth and it cannot be undone. I have been so worried about Downs because of the odds and everyone has been poo pooing me about being so anxious about it and encouraging me to...have faith? bury my head in the sand? believe it won't happen to me?...oh yes it will..this stuff happens to me over and over and its like my worst nightmare has come true
Last edited by mrsmac123; 19-06-2015 at 05:31.
@mrsmac123 Oh Luv, I am so very sorry you and your DH are having to go through this whole ordeal
It's so terribly unfair after all you've been through.You have every reason to feel angry at the world!!! You're right, there's nothing you could've done to change anything (bar having your embryo's PGD tested before transferring). It really does come down to the right egg and sperm combination.
Being in this age group only makes things worse in terms of probabilities of chromosomal abnormalities and it is a risk we all take when getting a BFP with our own eggs. This is not your fault Luv, for you've done nothing wrong, nor are you being punished ok?? IF Down Syndrome is confirmed, it really is just terrible luck (which sounds trite and dismissive and I don't mean it to).
I say IF, because although the Verifi "detected" T21, it's only a screening test and therefore is not 100% proof diagnostic, hence the reason you're doing the CVS which is 100% diagnostic. Then you will know for sure. Mind you, they will be able to get a pretty good idea from your NT scan on Tues too.
I don't know if you're coming to Brisbane to have your CVS done, if you are and you're going through the public hospital, I'd be happy to give you the name of the Maternal Fetal Medicine Specialist who did mine (DP and I chose to have an elective CVS because I knew there was a good chance any NIPT test we did would come back as a high risk due to my age and the fact it was my OE that made the embryo). You will be in very safe and experienced hands with him if you do end up coming down here for it.
Please try not to put the horse before the cart until you know for sure. I understand your need to emotionally separate yourself from this pregnancy just in case the worst is confirmed, but many women that end up with high risk results from NIPT or NT+BT's for a chromosomal abnormality do go on to find via the CVS/Amnio that everything is ok.
I'll be praying to the Universe that you are one of them Luv You'll get an intitial result 24-48hrs after your CVS (called a FISH Report) so you won't have to wait too long.
As the Girls have said, we are all here for you if you need to talk or anything else.
Will be thinking of you allxoxxox
Last edited by BlondeinBrisvegas; 19-06-2015 at 06:07.
Oh @mrsmac123 that is so goddamn unfair. I can understand how angry and disappointed you must be. We only got to 10 weeks with our Down's pregnancy and were so devastated when we m/c but I feel so grateful now that the decision was taken out of our hands because I don't know how we would have dealt with it. I'm devastated for you x
Thanks BlondeinBrisVegas. Yeh I know its only screening but they are VERY good as far as the T21 is concerned, I have read and read and read and the T18 etc seem to have some more cases where the screening was disproven but the T21 just very difficult to find more than about 3 in all my trawling that had opposite "ANEUPLOIDY DETECTED" going by how things go with me and pregnancy we have no hope. About .3% is what I found ...that is POINT 3 of a percent ruled out with CVS/Amnio. As for the Nuchal scan, I kept worrying last night it was goin to be seen to have its head missing as remember about 10 days ago I was jumping out of my skin about having the Verifi worrying that it was dead in there and wasting the money so I did end up having a scan and while the results showed heartbeat which was what I was looking for...they were unable to clearly see the head...now it was indicated to me that this would likely be the clarity of the scan and size of fetus but I cant help wondering...if there was good reason they mentioned it
I will be coming to the Mater for CVS but through the public system, not sure I get a choice but thankyou for caring. Out of interest what does it cost privately in case I can't get it done fast enough? I want t dealt with. I feel so lonely as I have been...protecting myself or protecting other people by not telling many people as I dealt with last time my father, did not respond to my email for days saying I had to terminate with methotrexate because "he did not know what to say" and now my mother and best friend are speechless...after telling me on my way into getting the test results it will be finef and just generally cant be bothered dealing with it. Seeing DH so devastated has really knocked me about even more....he has been going into to tears all morning.
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