Wow sunny those exact words could have burst right from me! It's the lack of control that is the hardest right? That's what I can't keep dealing with. I also have to have a plan for what's next. Dh hates that and I get a lot of "how about you just worry about what's happening now?" That doesn't work for me because I get lost in the now....the what if the embryo has already died? What if I eat the wrong thing, do the wrong thing, stand too close to the microwave? ALL COMPLETELY DUMB POINTLESS THOUGHTS THAT WILL HAVE ZERO EFFECT ON THE OUTCOME! The microwave is not going to damage my emby....but what if it does? See stupid thoughts that I'm likely to encounter if I think too much about the now. On the other hand if I think about the future if it doesn't work....dd can easily go to a private school, attend the dance lessons she wants, we can travel the world again starting next year. All positive happy thoughts so I'll stick with those things, stuff I can control!
hope all goes well in the morning sunny. Is Kate doing your transfer?
Where are you at with the cycle spec?