Gabriels funeral is on Wednesday. My husband has made a superhuman effort to make this less painful for me as possible. I've taken some time to reflect and mourn my angels that were far too beautiful for this earth. I think on all the mothers and mothers to be here who have lost or are struggling to conceive and i marvel at your strength. I do not feel strong. When my mind and soul feel better i'm going to investigate why i have an incompetent cervix and if that means i can never carry children. Once again thank you all for your kind words and words of support they are very much appreciated and needed. I desperately need to hold on to hope. I have made a facebook to join the support groups that you have suggested. Thankyou for the links.