I'm 32 and we have decided enough is enough. I just wrote this on my bubhub diary. Sometimes I feel it helps to write it down and get it all out.
Every time I think about wanting a baby I must remember it's been 6 hard years of numerous tests and disappointments, two chemical pregnancies, 3 full IVF cycles, 4 IVF transfers (one PGD tested) and one IUI and we still don't know whether it's my eggs or immune issues or both....
I have tried everything from naturopaths to Chinese herbs and acupuncture, gluten and dairy free diets and detox cleanses.
I have spent thousands and thousands of dollars and put my faith in doctors who failed to mention issues and took our money for treatment anyway.
I don't want to pump my body full of more drugs that make me gain weight, make me feel awful and borderline depressed and affect my health.
I need to embrace not having kids and enjoy lazy Sundays, holidays and doing what I want when I want and being able to have a body that is my own and not scarred from childbearing. I want to enjoy my life and get off this mouse wheel that is trying for a baby with infertility.