I need help to figure out how to build flexibility into my daily routine and not fall apart when things go wrong and I have no control. I know I should be grateful for a healthy family but it's such a struggle with 3 kids and no support. I make lists and feel if I could just get us into a routine I could cope but I seem to trip at every hurdle. Like Mother's Day was supposed to be chance for me to catch up on house jobs but cranky kids meant we went out and I got no time. Started today feeling optimistic but at 12.40 so far baby has not had any sleep. Just screams when I try and put her down. I don't do cio but had to walk away and leave her I was getting so stressed but she didn't go to sleep. Online shop is still lying on kitchen floor, bub is watching peppa pig and I'm drinking more coffee with my lunch which now is a biscuit!! I'm reading a book about building resilience for our kids but feel like I have zero myself.