Ok so I had a mc two months ago. It was early, 10weeks. Nothing major. Big deal. Happens all the time right? I should be fine by now!? Well most of the time I am. Day to day I'm all good.
But yesterday & days leading up to mothers day it was bad. Nerves. Anxiety. Yuk. I'm so up tight about everything. But why? Why is it that a time when I should be happy & thankful for what I've got (we have a gorgeous 3yo dd) I'm a miserable sack of ****. Hubby must think I'm pathetic...
I just feel like its surrounding me lately. I avoided a family event because of that. One family member is pregnant (within same week of my was due date) Another has a 10wk old. Another just sent me a txt with her ultrasound pic. My friend hasn't spoken to me since I told her what happened. I suspect she's pregnant.... God I'm so paranoid. That's all great for them, good on you guys. But I DON'T CARE!! I don't want to bask in your glory.
People are going to live their lives & have babies. I accept that. I can't change that. So why am I being like this? Why can't I just get over this?
How long does it take for this feeling to stop? When will it go away?