Firstly I will say I am undercover for privacy reasons.
Secondly I made made a huge mistake ( pretty usual for me) so here it goes, I work full time for a great company, I am fortunate to have this job and I'm grateful problem is I don't enjoy it. Things have just been getting worse and worse and I am more unhappy then ever. A little while ago I applied for a job that was out of my comfort zone but something I have wanted to do for a while. I got the job and I turned it down! Because I was scared. Scared to leave my comfort zone, scared on how I would manage the kids, scared to leave a secure job etc etc etc... You get the general idea. Fear stops me from doing so much in my life. Now I regret it beyond anything, it was such an amazing opportunity and I would have been on the path to my dream career but I stuffed it up. Here is my question I know they are going to be looking for more people in a few weeks, do I re apply or maybe call the manager? Or have I burnt that bridge completely? I can't believe I even got the job and I know they had many applications. Or should I just look for something else instead? Or instead should I just be happy where I am and be grateful I have a job? I know so many people looking for work who have a good education and experience and they can't get work... See fear again. Any sane advice would be appreciate. Or insane advice I'm willing to take anything onboard.