For those of you that have had a very much loved pet who dies suddenly.. How long did it take you to stop feeling like absolute Sh.it? Were you ever able to get another dog or was it all just too painful?
Our beautiful boy got out of our garden over Easter and was hit by a car. He died instantly. I blame myself for not making sure the gate was closed (even though it was DH going in and out of it all morning). I blame myself because I didn't notice he was gone and assumed he was lounging out the back like normal. I blame myself because I was out calling for him and if I had stayed at the road for 5 more minutes instead of going out to check the reserve I would've seen him and been able to stop him from running across it.
Every day just gets harder. I'm struggling to cope and I'm getting cross with DD over the smallest things. I hate who I'm becoming. We've trialled 2 dogs since and both have been with us for less than 24 hours because they just aren't right. They aren't my boy. I don't know if I'll ever feel the same way about another dog. Buddy was just perfect for us. I don't even want to live in this house with my little family anymore because everything just reminds me of him.
Does this ever get any easier? I don't know how long I can keep my head above water feeling this way.