My first child left me with a nasty 3rd degree tear, upon having my first bowel movement my external stitches busted and I tore some more from my anus then the internal stitches were left exposed to the air so they did not dissolve and continued to scratch away at my tissue and anus until I begged for them to be removed. They were removed in a hospital 3 months later and It was confirmed that I had damaged the walls inside my anus. it's been 3 years and every time i have a bowel movement and wipe very thoroughly with a wet wipe by the time I go to use the bathroom again and wipe it looks like i just did not wipe my bottom at all the first time, I'm slowly leaking fecal fluid for hours after having made a bowel movement.
Not only this by my tail bone was so damaged from birth that i could not sit without pain for 16 months !! and even today 3 years later (after gaining a few kg) it is starting to hurt again.
My first baby was 4.3kg.... what is the next one is larger?
I have zero desire to have natural birth again. I already know I will not handle it or control it I will have a meltdown the moment I go into labor and chances I will get induced again).
Hospital said I can ask for a C section and will defiantly get one. but some people are still telling me next birth will be better and i should stay positive about a vaginal birth. Someone please tell me it's ok to just have a C sec.