I get this is a sensitive issue but hs, your posts ooze with anxiety. You actually do something that my therapist said I do a lot. You catastrophize everything. Before we moved to London I did this constantly about our move (and still do). I think maybe an exercise she gave me may help you.
Whenever you are feeling anxious or stressed about something sit down and write a list of every single catastrophe your mind is coming up with regarding that particular issue. Then, in a column next to each 'catastrophe' write down the most likely, rational outcome and if it is really that bad. It's a way to make you see rationally that something isn't the end of the world and you can deal with it.
Hope you're doing ok.