Just wondering if there are some others out there in the same situation and how you cope?
My husband has two teenage kids which are great kids. One lives with us. We get along with his ex so there is no issue there.
I sometimes feel though that the wish for a baby is one sided. Hubby said he wants a child but I doubt he would do whatever it takes as he has two already. He said he would not adopt for example. Whereas I am open to anything.
He doesn't put enough effort in reducing his alcohol intake either which makes me upset. Additionally he dicided the other day out of the blue to have some weed. It just shows me that it's not as important to him. He keeps telling me to relax and not worry and it will eventually happen. But he has kids already so of course he isn't in a rush.
Additiomally I seem to struggle with the idea that there seems to be no excitement as he has done all this already. He knows it all and he tries to tell me how my body works. He doesn't see my anxiety relating to my endometriosis. He doesn't get why it might not just happen.
I just want to share that experience first time with him but I know it's not going to be a big wow effect. IS it selfish for me to want the experience most first time ttcers and mothers have?
I just feel lost and feel that baby making is not really important to him but that it's more: whatever happens happens!
Oh well I jyst needed to vent a bit.